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i've been on a boat
just sailing through the sea
towards a destination i can't see
overcast weather delights my senses
as i continue to trek forward
towards a destination i can't see
a rusty boat for me alone
on the deck i have carved a name
in the hull the darkness remains
like the destination i can't see
just sailing through the sea
standing on the bow
looking straight ahead
this is how i wish to be
all alone with the sea

like it is

hey little butterfly..i want you to know
the beauty of you is all that is held
with every revision to let it all show
things that leave me utterly compelled

hey little butterfly..land on my head
settle in with the smoke i exhale
your days are hanging by a thread
wings that grow so frail

bye little butterfly..this is quite sad
hang my head low, wipe my eyes
when all that is good has gone bad
nothing to do but hide in disguise

oh little butterfly..i hardly knew ya
what were the colours i once knew so well
your many perfections and pointless flaws
with many questions i sit and dwell

wow little butterfly..you did a number on me
opened my eyes to what i have not seen
sitting alone on a cut down tree
determined alone to come out clean

rest by the garden you called your home
no more sunlight...no more hate
left to fly...left to roam
my little butterfly..you've made it great

the contours of your body
whittle away with absolute clarity
this misery is funny
with its honest sincerity

scatter my soul

empty focus, scatter brained
losing touch without a doubt
with empty colours i have been stained
there is a desperate need to break out

i love the rain
hot, hot sun drains my soul
just sitting on an empty train
little fragments of my control

off on the side
desperately hopeful
wishing for ears so i can confide
many words that knock my skull

nobody thinks so nobody knows
what do these illusions mean
i want to make your radiance grow
beautiful things that can be seen

deep in the forest
there was once a fire
clean cut images i am blessed
my heart is on fire

i am in love
with childish possibilities
sitting way up above
unreachable capabilities

with the sky real low
my arms reach so high
i want to make your atmosphere grow
and in it you will fly

i went for a swim
in the allure of perfect harmony
as i drown the lights grow dim
this misery is funny

avalanche

i fell asleep with my window open
so an angel flew in and took me away
i know because my breath was stolen
the dusty curtains still shine and sway

i picked it out from all my nightmares
settle it slow as it falls apart
i've been having so many nightmares
that creep up slow and kill my heart

avalanche, avalanche
my heart is an avalanche
everything falls way too fast
and i am covered in snow

nate

when nate was five he counted to ten

colored his eyes with the ink from his pen

waited in the dark without a sound
to scare the girls when they came around

the colour of his walls would change
his parents were concerned...they found him strange
the doctors say that nate is sick
held him down as he would shout and kick

the walls are black just like his eyes
putting on his most excellent disguise
pretty stripes resting on his shirt
everything was perfect and nothing hurt

his hair was a mess of unconcerned excitement
straight from his bed and out the door he went
digging for worms and putting flowers in his hair
arms waving free hanging in the air

with teeth so green and tongue so dry
the blood would pour whenever he would cry
solving the questions of life in his head
instead of petting the cat he'd kiss it instead

when nate was five i saw him at the store
lying face down on the cold hard floor
waiting patiently without a sound
i hope he knows that he is profound

washed out

violet fires swaying in the wind
speaking through the air
laying it all so bare

there is a house standing all alone
constant in its stance
never had a chance

silver fox in the forest crying for the night
makes it so sincere
like the stars so crystal clear

unseen hands taking it all
may it close its grip on my neck
so my limbs go limp and my eyes roll back

stranded on a rusty ship on a restless sea
all alone with people i do not know
wishing for flames i knew long ago

my skin grows so pale along with my spirit
aging slowly as i waste away
along with this ship that bobs and sways

if dust should ever settle the rain will come
with the moonlight everything shines so bright
catching little things with pure delight

ever true is this honest journey
the line is right and always straight
just its own melancholy state

at our destination i am the anchor
down into the black of the bottom
where i was born and where i am from

there on the shore is a bed for me
under the sun my eyes are closed
images of bliss only i will know

tiny birds in unison always fly together
i can only watch in envy
just sitting by the sea

crescent hues reflect on the waters
catching it off guard
crashing down so hard

coming into view just over the horizon
slowly falling into place
ready to interlace

i have no idea where my path will lead
close my eyes as i dive right in
always a different place than where i've been

i wish to carve it into my bare skin
can i go back to where i've been
where i've been..where i've been

that useless cat just sits on that couch and does absolutely nothing

that hint of grey
between the blue and the red
that's where i need to be
that's where i need to be

maybe that feeling
going down my spine
is all that i have needed
all that could have happened
through wide-eyed nights
quizzical dreams during the day
maybe the numbness
slowly creeping to my head
is all that i have needed
all that could have happened

i count on the coming days
speeding by until i hold them in place
if i don't soak in the beauty now
i will never feel again

many stories i have been told
of past adventures from brittle lips
say that the beauties do not last
and i want to feel them now

maybe the images stored
in the depths of my soul
are all that i have needed
all that could have happened
face down in the darkness
what a waste of time
maybe this realization
is all that i have needed
all that could have happened

that hint of gray
between the blue and the red
that's where i need to be
that's where i long to be

spit out my brain
rip my heart into a million pieces
let me float on up
the moon teasing me
too far for me to reach
the ground scaring me
afraid that i will fall
as i settle
in that hint of gray
between the blue and the red
because that's where i long to be
that's where i long to be