jEZUS cHRYSTUS

jesus christ, save my soul
i will reach and try to feel
holy bible, teach me more
let me know that this is real

oh satan, leave me alone
can't you see that i am weak
i am scared that you will break me
before i reach the highest peak

the birds are dead and they decay
i will collect the wings and fly away
up and up until i hit the sun
into the arms of the lovely nun

i will drink my gin and lay awake
spit it out like all my mistakes
confess my sins and receive my bread
instead of gin, drink the wine instead

the nile

so i was floating through the nile
my eyes bright all the while
wishing to stay put forever
pushing my way through whatever

burning in the yellow
freezing but still mellow
counting time by the mile
just going forth in the nile

003

the dust collects on this empty space
where i used to sit and talk with you
shaded by the comfort that no longer radiates
and i was so eager to get high with you

i can still see you now
biting at your fingers
dipping your feet in the waters
stretching towards the sky
breathing in and out

adjust yourself because you are alone
chasing the light that calls your name
i am right there but then again
i was right here but look again,
i'm not

do you still feel the same things
do these things elicit those same feelings
i wish i knew, but i can just assume
i wish for the best, but i assume the worst

i don't deserve this, can't you see?
just cut the ropes and you will be
right there where you were first reborn
next to me before we ever met
i won't remember you
i swear to god
i will walk away
i swear to fucking god

002

i woke up this one morning
to a green cloud on the floor
and just the very next morning
it was plastered to my door

i felt so real inside my bubble
and my skinny, pale body had no stains
but i wanted more, i wanted trouble
to melt with the sun, fall with the rain

my head is a radio. circa 1985
but my papers read six years later
i am full of numbers but i have yet to arrive
just waiting for the greater creator

you see, my view is narrow and not too bright
you're not a person, you're just another face
see you during the day but won't keep me up at night
we are nothing more than wasted space

i am floating through my mind
and oh how i wish you could see them too
but you just stand there, stupid and blind
so i sit and sing to myself
because i'll never get to you