you were meant for so much more than me

it did not take too long for me to see
this world was not made for you and me
we stopped and talked nonstop from sunset to sunrise
refused to go down with shaking hands and bloodshot eyes
swore never to disappear, got lost in the lust we knew was real
but we knew we were dying, slowly losing what we used to feel
i refused to let go and plastered over the wounds over and over
the finish line was just around the corner, getting closer and closer
you cut the knot that forced us together while i slowly fell back
my mind went blank and my eyes slowly shut to visions of black
it did not take long for me to realize
your heart belonged somewhere else

simplifed words for a poorly drawn out diagram of misunderstood eclectic neuropsychology

this narrow path is getting wider by the minute and the sky is rising
this beautiful guitar i will play and the thoughtful lyrics i will sing

mountains of loneliness are getting lost behind this heavy haze
seas of relaxation sweep in and send in thoughts of better days

my mind is a train wreck full of non sinners and there are no survivors!
i have been taking little baby steps and my motions are nothing but a blur
my heart has been cruelly wrenched out and stomped on the floor
you have grabbed me by the neck and thrown me out behind a slammed door

but i sit here now in some weird, psychotic, malicious state of nature
my mind is slowly melting away and i'm afraid there is no cure
sitting in point blank range, in the middle of a maze, no escapes
your language is gibberish to me and your writing is nothing but shapes

this narrow path has slowly expanded into a never ending plain full of nothing
this old, out of tune guitar i will play and the scrambled lyrics i will sing

if you told me your dreams

if you told me your dreams
i'd paint on a blank canvas, vivid colors over simple hues of white
make the daytime extra bright, with shades of black for the night
a hilltop standing out in the green, with a patch of shade just for us
pale shades of orange for the sunset, gray for the silent dusk

if you told me how ugly it was
i'd splatter over my honest mistake with a deep color of red
write down beautiful thoughts of you onto this new canvas instead
spill my feelings all over the empty space until it was a color of its own
let it lift you up and take you away to places you have never known

if you told me how shallow i looked
i'd break this overdone canvas into a million little bits
proceed to jump into your mind to find out what makes you click
paint a masterpiece on your brain and write a poem on your heart
you'd appreciate what i'm trying to do and we'd finally have a start

trapedot revenerows

there was a boy who said he'd get away from all that weighed him down
his eyes could stretch so far, the world was much more than this town
said there were places he must go and sights that he must see
stand on the opposite side of the world so he could finally be free

his mind was full of wonders and he was yearning to be gone
sleep under the golden sun so he could brave the seas at dawn
gaze at the clouds as they slowly pass and count the stars at night
all his bones would be delighted as the light in his soul ignites

he will find a girl sitting on the stars and singing his favorite song
the kind that catches your attention and makes you sing along
brought her down so he could feel more real than he'd ever felt before
with her he'd freeze in the coldest weather and not care anymore

there was once a boy who boldly said he would run away from it all
said a beautiful sunset was his sign and a light breeze was his call
he broke his bones and cleaned his mind and felt it in his heart
embraced the world that he made his and swore never to depart

my voice, dreams, and this god damn seam

do i clutch at every corner and twist the image till it blurs
trying to mend the broken legs just to make it even worse
attempting a short, simple sentence but my voice always slurs

droplets of water fall onto the window and i slowly drift to sleep
dreaming of giant waves that crash onto all four sides of my ship
send me off instead to a never ending field with air too clean to grip
let me lay alone in the middle of a wide ocean, but never too deep

these seams i have slowly undone are too loose with the end surely near
so the seams lay in pieces as i await once more for you to appear
i sit here in the shade with a sincere apology but you have disappeared

my actions have no simple logic but my eyes have yet to close
the darkness does not keep me away and i will go where the wind blows
making my way on my broken ship and wading through the fields
i will cast my hands into what i can not comprehend to see what it yields