a disturbance of peace

it was three o'clock and the sun was still on the other side
but i sat there alone with my blood-shot eyes open wide
i was in my own little world, and the sun never set
a little happy place, where there was no regret

i move my arms up and down and my eyes side to side
and i noticed a little light coming from outside
slowly walking over to take a quick peek
i felt like i hadn't moved in days; i felt so weak

i moved the curtains and the light flooded though my veins
the shock went all throughout my body and i felt insane

i woke up in a peaceful little field
there were no huge buildings or any human structure
and everything was revealed
right then and there

i could not lift my arms anymore and my eyes were locked in place
so i stared straight up to the sky and saw eternal space
i looked beyond that also and saw a pretty face
but she frowned with a scowl and her face filled of disgrace

i tried to frown as hard as i could, but i couldn't move an inch
so i tried to smile as wide as i could, but could not even flinch

so i lay there in that little green field all to myself
and i felt content because i was alone all by myself
the whole place was silent and i could hear my own breathing
and in that moment, i did not care if i was living

but everyone says good times do not last forever
i was sinking down and no matter how hard i endeavored
i could not keep myself afloat in this beautiful place
so i let myself go and fell in a rapid pace

i cried tears as i was falling down my imaginary hole
because at that moment, there was nothing i could control
so i fell and fell and fell and fell and fell some more
and i finally broke though and landed on a cold cement floor

my head hurt from the collision and i was shivering
all my bones were broken and i lay there quivering
a man walked up to me and watched at me cry
and he wouldn't talk or even ask why

i called out to him just to let him know
that i wished i was dead years and years ago
he just stared at me with his cold piercing eyes
and after a few hours, he finally broke the silence, "arise"

so i stood up, and i stood up on my own
after staring at me for a little more
he walked on until he couldn't be seen anymore, and i was alone
and the silence that ensued was something i couldn't ignore

i shouted to the sky, space, and the heavens
but i couldn't shake the feeling and there was no leaven
so i hit the ground with both my fists and wished to sink
and i swear i went insane and could not even think

i wanted to get out, i wanted to get out, i wanted to get out
i wanted to be free, i wanted to be free, i wanted to be free

i sat there all alone, breathing hard as blood poured from my fist
there was no getting away no matter how hard i'd persist
the sun never rose and the dark clouds hid the moon
yet i still sat and waited, but i could never attune

with the loneliness i felt inside
and i wanted to stride, i need to make strides

as i lay there, i did not even notice
the wind picking me up and carrying me to an oasis
i landed ever so softly and i slowly opened my eyes
and i was staring at warm october skies

i sniffed my fingers and it smelt of fresh nicotine
but i knew that everything was fine and nothing was obscene
i watched you walk closer and i've never felt more serene
but something cut you off and there was something in between

my doubts cut you off and i lay down again
i knew i would go insane again, the only question was "when."