i am so smart

i am so smart
i am really really smart
so very very smart
i am so smart i can pull bill gates apart
i am so smart i ride around in a go-kart
i am so smart i excel in art
i am so smart i can make a paper heart
i am so smart i don't run, i dart
i am so smart i tell you when to start
i am so smart i interrogate pop-tarts
i am so smart i don't let nomads depart
i am so smart i spend quality time making a chart
i am so smart but i don't know the meaning of impart
and i am so motherfucking smart i can make you fart

decisions, decisions

we can make this last, we can hold it tight and never let go
we can plant it on the sweet, sweet ground and watch it grow
we can swear our lives to it, we can swear to never let it fall
we can write down what we feel, and post it up on the wall

and we will call it the best thing in the world
all of our favorite things put together and swirled
around and around and around and around
and we can jump in and smile as we drown

i am enthralled by this sudden wave of commotion
all these loud sounds and noises trigger my emotion
and i am in the middle of the crowd staring right at you
knowing miles and miles away you're staring back too

we didn't ask for what we have, and we are denied what we want
and the fact that i fought for you just to let you go continues to haunt
and chill me to the bone, it never ceases to chill me to my fucking bone
but i've continued to be happy through it all, because i have grown

even though i can't articulate the thoughts racing through my mind
i can tell you that whatever it is, it continues to redefine
the things that continue to help me unwind
and i have come to know it, and we continue to intertwine
you are a happy memory now, because i have decided to leave you behind
and it seems to be a decision i will never take back

the pills are ill

i met you on the last intersection on the right
it was night out but the lamppost was shining bright
i met up with my best friend on that cold friday night
and i felt content, and the feeling was quite alright

i felt like there was nothing holding me still
and i lived that night only for the thrill
because i was free, there was nothing to fulfill
so open your goddamn mouth and pop in life's pill

on a particularly hot day

i was walking home one day from school and the sun was completely nude
it was showing off everything it had and i turned to my friend and said, "dude,
it is motherfucking hot today."
not looking up, my friend replied, "okay."
i dragged my feet along while envying the people in their air conditioned cars
and i kept repeating "fuck", because my house was so fucking far!

"dude, shut up. i can't hear my music."
"shut the fuck up. fall out boy is pretty fucking gay."
"they're pretty good in acoustic."
"dude, how are we friends. get the fuck away."

our arizonas had been empty for a while and we discarded the cans
so i kept repeating the eff word, and my friend just turned up his ipod
i walked as slow as a snail, shielding my eyes with my hands
my house seemed like it was getting farther away, how fucking odd

so fuck you sun, why don't you put on some damn clothes
because when it's hot, everything is longer and slow
that's what she said

ellipse

can you tell me, how you ever decided to leave us all alone?
you went ahead as you let all of us just sit back and drone
you're off to bigger and better things, shining lights and fame
we sat laughing in our dusty rooms, but it just wasn't the same
maybe you're stronger than us, maybe you grasped the opportunity
the feeling of guilt can strike us down, but you had that immunity
that immunity landed on you, and you brushed it away
i guess we are all proud of you, but your actions left us in dismay
you're exquisite, you're elite, you have the world on your fingertips
but please have some consideration, your presence has created an ellipse

the subway

i rode on the subway train at twelve in the morning, and i was tired
my hand held the letter, and i began to remember what had just transpired
an old man stared at me with his expressionless eyes as i opened the letter
i studied this man; he had thick glasses with brown khakis and a green sweater
nervously smiling, i quickly looked down and began to read what i knew by heart
then entered a large lady, accompanied by large plastic bags and a Kmart cart
i looked up from the letter and stared at a fly, as it just buzzed and flew around
i wondered what it was thinking, what its intention was as it landed on the ground
my mind began to wander from one thing to another, and thoughts filled my head
staring at my reflection on the glass, i told myself i needed a haircut and my bed
staring at my dirty shoes tapping the ground, the old man loudly grunted
i knew he wanted me to stop, but the beat was too good for me to stop
i suddenly knew what i needed at this exact moment, not only what i wanted
the train moved on slowly as i blew a bubble with my gum until it popped
the night was brighter, i smiled big, and i threw the letter to the ground
i laughed, the man grunted, the woman smiled, and the night was profound

a carefully organized symphony

you never told me what to do, and you never held me back
you never told me what i was good for or what i lacked
you never stared back at me wanting an answer to my actions
you were always a loner, never dissolving into any different factions

i was always by your side, i never let anything happen to you
i sat there bewildered at you, knowing i had not a single clue
i always found a smile on my face when you were close by
i then felt empty inside when my eyes met your empty eyes

we would sit together and not say one word for hours and hours
we went everywhere together but we had nothing to call ours
we constantly stared off into space, appreciating the ensuing silence
we knew what time the sun rose and what time the sun set

they threw sticks and stones, but our bones were never broken
they always said what they wanted, and i wished i was that outspoken
they constantly got our attention but never knew how to keep it
they would never quit however, i lay back as they continue to persist

you took me to the pier once, and i felt like time had stopped and you were mine
i thought this life would stay easy forever, and the world would never cease to shine
we always shared our thoughts with our thoughts, not with our words
they never stopped talking, but i was still content, and the feeling was never absurd

maybe maybe

i talk really fast and laugh at how terribly funny i sound
i watch the sun set, watch it rise, and call it profound
i shout really loud and whisper low to hear the difference
i stand at the edge of a cliff because the feeling is intense

i do not believe we enjoy the littlest things in our life
the problems we encounter are plenty and rife
i think we should take a seat and take a look around
listen to the rainfall and enjoy the beautiful sound

we do not accentuate the qualities that keep us content
money and fame are not what happiness represents
tension should not be a word, but even i feel it all the time

let the artists write on the walls without calling it a crime
don't hesitate to say what you mean, and it doesn't have to rhyme
we are all stuck on the same planet and forced to co-exist
if everyone cared just a little bit, maybe we wouldn't have to subsist

we can shout really loud and whisper low to hear the difference
we can stand at the edge of a cliff because the feeling is intense
because sometimes, the minor things are the finer things

the epitome of stupidity

we can float for all eternity in my blank empty mind
you'd think my mind was tangled up, but there is nothing to unwind
shout all you want, and the echoes will never stop ringing
and as i sit with you, i stare into your eyes while you're talking
i try to comprehend what you're saying, but i can never make it out
my mind has long been blank; i have no idea what you're talking about

maybe in another lifetime

i wonder if you had ever wanted to die, and never ever come back
if you've ever wanted to lose consciousness till all you saw was black
you remain happy through all the insults they continue to throw at you
they can continue to argue, but i am sure it will never get through

everybody is going to the back alley to smoke their night away
getting high out of their minds until their skin turns gray
everybody is going to the back alley to avoid our everyday problems
trying to cuss with every sentence and rap along with eminem

you should have never trusted their word
i look at you now with too much pity to hold in my hands
you should have jetted before it ever occurred
i talk of you in regret; you know we had so much planned

past actions and present decisions

i persevere through each day, with no regret of past actions
those past actions had left a faint scent of satisfaction
those past actions had left everyone shaking their heads
thinking i was in my own world, not looking ahead

i live through each night, sitting alone all to myself
now with clean hands thanks to the beliefs of someone else
i have old memories shrunk into framed pictures standing on my shelf
i have old memories vividly drawn out in my recovering mind
breaking them down everyday, i continue to redefine
everything i had once held dearly
i still hold them dearly, and every night i sign it sincerely

all you faggots have no idea what is going through my head
your influences continue to creep in my heart and continue to spread
you keep me happy and content, as i start a new life
all you faggots overreacted in what you called a time of strife
and i continue to sit alone through each and every night
because the decisions i have made do not seem quite right

loose screws

i think i know you, but i am not sure of that yet
so come with me, and we can clear the blur confusing us
the world will be laid out in front of us like blankets
with only ourselves and needing no one to trust

i don't know anything but the truth, and it distracts me
it tells me its secrets softly into my ear, and i never agree
the truth stares at me with a disgusting look in its eyes
i'll cover it with the blanket laid out for us, and continue to deny

there are no stars for us, i happened to eat it all
they exploded in my mouth and had themselves quite a brawl
you look at me with clear displeasure and expect an apology
but i do what i think is right; i learned it in psychology
i failed that class

my conscience tried to straighten out my distorted mind
i thanked it kindly but i simply declined
the loose screws in my head kept me alive and well
and besides, i've hated science all my life
take off the con-, and what does it spell?

the visibly discontent look on your face caught my attention
you won't talk to me at all, and i hate all this unnecessary tension
so i took out a piece of paper, wrote ideas, and simply improvised
i took out my sharpie and drew a smile over your frown
and now i must admit, you look quite nice

living in my dreams

i try to focus as hard as i can as i try to walk a straight line
sweat rolls down my pale face as my vision and focus continue to decline
my hands shake as they reach for the walls, and it is always out of my reach
i try talking myself through this, but i can not comprehend my distorted speech
my red, swollen eyes look up to the light and its bright flash blinds me
then i fall to the ground, staring into my thoughts; my eyes are closed but i can see

everything was so clear then, before i had succumbed to the pressures around me
i walked that straight line and out the door, and i was as free as can be
my hands were snug in the safety of my pockets and my eyes stared at the stars
but that was long ago, and thinking about it always felt a little bizarre
i was sick of who i had become, and felt like i needed to make some changes
and i swear i would've done something about it, if only i wasn't so deranged

problem solved

when you feel like jumping off that bridge, remember that i love you
so please call me ahead of time and i'll try to guide you through
instead of staring at the calling waters below, tell me about the incredible view
and let me remind you that there is much more to live for, it's true
if you believe you know what you're doing, i don't think you have a clue
it's way too early, the sun hasn't even rose, for you to say adieu
so even though you have no fucking idea what you're going to do
please wait for me if i can't convince you, because i'll jump too

our own little paradise

the sun smiled down at me as i stepped outside on a bright sunny morning
i walked into the middle of the street flooded with cars without any warning
because i could care less today, i could die for all i cared today
high on what you told me was healthy, you quickly led me away

you led me to a far away isolated place away from everyone
you soon let go of my hand and you began to run
so i chased you, what else was there to do?
i chased you and i chased you and i chased you
and you were so damn fast, so fucking fast
i had no idea how long my lungs would last

i stopped and you stopped, staring at me in a funny way
i sat down, pulled out my guitar, and i began to play
you hummed to the music, and we were ecstatic
we spoke no words, we were so melodramatic
and you hummed so damn nice, so fucking nice
i had no idea how much longer i could suffice

the sun was setting, the sun was going away
you began to walk away, i guessed you weren't going to stay
i didn't stop you, i let you walk, walk, walk away
and i stared at our own little paradise, and decided not to stay
so i slowly made my way home, kicking dirt into the air
and let it land on my wore out jeans; the feeling was quite fair

we were at the top of the world

the fall is rewinding back as quick as you can imagine, and even faster
and the clouds overhead never cease to predict a near disaster
but we will continue to overlook anything threatening to ruin our day
so as the autumn leaves fall and create beautiful scenery overhead,
from the desolate swings will we sway

we will sway from those swings, and balance the earth on our fingertips
the oceans will overturn and will flow down our arms and continue to drip
the psychedelic effects of whatever we consumed that evening can never replace
that good feeling we had under the autumn sky, staring deep into empty space
and we continue our reckless swaying

the leaves crashed on the void, void ground and piled up as high as you can reach
we lay on the very top and we were amazed as we reached up to touch the stars,
and we were at a loss of speech

we're not even trying to overlook anything threatening to ruin our day anymore
so as that gentle autumn sky continues to please us, we will be at a sense of rapport
and the desolate swings will be desolate no longer

unwind your tangles

i am going to break through the arms of whatever is holding me back
and maybe then i'll know and understand everything i seem to lack
i have too many problems and too much time to fix it all
it's all too much time to waste staring at the wall

i miss your voice, i find it quite soothing and definitely relaxing
whenever i hear what you have to say, i find myself digressing
and please don't stop, because i think i enjoy it way too much
even though i'll find myself falling really soon with nothing to clutch

i graze the smooth surface of the tree in the middle of your dreams
and i walk my sore legs until it falls off and dip my hands in the stream
everything is fine now, everything is looking up, looking up at you
and this act of hopelessness is a bad act; i can see you notice too

grow out of it and get over what you think will last forever
i know i'll never let go to face the consequences, but i'm not clever

sublime

the streets are vacant and the stale air created an unpleasant scent
it was trying to tell me something but i had no idea what it meant
all the doors were locked and the windows were boarded shut
and the ground was cracked and filled with old cigarette butts

what did it mean, what what it trying to tell me?
i had a vague idea but could not grab the key
holding onto beliefs is what i'm known to do best
but the guilt spread over me and a sharp pain hit my chest

the supply of air was slowly fading away and i fell to the floor
i struggled with what i couldn't even touch until i hurt no more
the people eventually moved on without me and so did the time
but i still carried a smile on my face; the view from up here is sublime

a disturbance of peace

it was three o'clock and the sun was still on the other side
but i sat there alone with my blood-shot eyes open wide
i was in my own little world, and the sun never set
a little happy place, where there was no regret

i move my arms up and down and my eyes side to side
and i noticed a little light coming from outside
slowly walking over to take a quick peek
i felt like i hadn't moved in days; i felt so weak

i moved the curtains and the light flooded though my veins
the shock went all throughout my body and i felt insane

i woke up in a peaceful little field
there were no huge buildings or any human structure
and everything was revealed
right then and there

i could not lift my arms anymore and my eyes were locked in place
so i stared straight up to the sky and saw eternal space
i looked beyond that also and saw a pretty face
but she frowned with a scowl and her face filled of disgrace

i tried to frown as hard as i could, but i couldn't move an inch
so i tried to smile as wide as i could, but could not even flinch

so i lay there in that little green field all to myself
and i felt content because i was alone all by myself
the whole place was silent and i could hear my own breathing
and in that moment, i did not care if i was living

but everyone says good times do not last forever
i was sinking down and no matter how hard i endeavored
i could not keep myself afloat in this beautiful place
so i let myself go and fell in a rapid pace

i cried tears as i was falling down my imaginary hole
because at that moment, there was nothing i could control
so i fell and fell and fell and fell and fell some more
and i finally broke though and landed on a cold cement floor

my head hurt from the collision and i was shivering
all my bones were broken and i lay there quivering
a man walked up to me and watched at me cry
and he wouldn't talk or even ask why

i called out to him just to let him know
that i wished i was dead years and years ago
he just stared at me with his cold piercing eyes
and after a few hours, he finally broke the silence, "arise"

so i stood up, and i stood up on my own
after staring at me for a little more
he walked on until he couldn't be seen anymore, and i was alone
and the silence that ensued was something i couldn't ignore

i shouted to the sky, space, and the heavens
but i couldn't shake the feeling and there was no leaven
so i hit the ground with both my fists and wished to sink
and i swear i went insane and could not even think

i wanted to get out, i wanted to get out, i wanted to get out
i wanted to be free, i wanted to be free, i wanted to be free

i sat there all alone, breathing hard as blood poured from my fist
there was no getting away no matter how hard i'd persist
the sun never rose and the dark clouds hid the moon
yet i still sat and waited, but i could never attune

with the loneliness i felt inside
and i wanted to stride, i need to make strides

as i lay there, i did not even notice
the wind picking me up and carrying me to an oasis
i landed ever so softly and i slowly opened my eyes
and i was staring at warm october skies

i sniffed my fingers and it smelt of fresh nicotine
but i knew that everything was fine and nothing was obscene
i watched you walk closer and i've never felt more serene
but something cut you off and there was something in between

my doubts cut you off and i lay down again
i knew i would go insane again, the only question was "when."

drop

the clock is ticking way too fast when i need it to stop
its like finally reaching the very top just to fall and drop
a thousand feet to the bottom, and i stare up as i fall
i try real hard to reach for your hand and try to call
your name but you are too far away, you are too far away

the clock is ticking way too fast when i need it to stop
i had barely reached the very top and now i drop
a thousand feet to the bottom, and i try staring as i fall
i tried real hard reaching your hand but you won't watch me stall
any time as i continue to drop, drop, drop, drop, drop
and i wished the clock would stop so i can catch my breath