wooden floor

i slid my feet along the wooden floor
arms stretched out, yearning for something more
the lights are brighter on the other side
i can overcome, i can climb the tide
there is no hesitation and no second thought
i am single-minded, i am not distraught
eighteen years of nothing had left me with no plans
an empty cellar in my head and nothing on my hands
i let everyone slide from my grip, a terrible regret
my eyes they will remember and i will not forget
because even when i hated you, i've never loved you more
banging on that wooden door that left my fists so sore
clawing my way to the other side and letting you pull me back
until you got tired and ran away, never to come back
so i sit here today in this dream i've had
the rain pours from all directions, but still i'm glad
my head is full of thought that had been locked away
it sweeps me up like a wave and tells me i'll be okay
i will eventually drown, but i will fight
my lungs will explode but i won't die tonight
i will get to the other side before i fall asleep
my body will wither away but your heart i will keep