everything

beautiful things make my heart smile

like gentle droplets of rain making the sidewalk shine

when the moon is at its peak

my thoughts just settle with ease

holding me together like tangled strings

i long for all of the noise to blend together

making me a fixture of all i happen to hear

everything i see becomes a portrait i consume

everything is radiant and everything is right

as i share these thoughts with you i hope that you can feel

the beauties i muster inside me can rub off on you too

my hands tremble with a sense of relief

but my state of mind is true

to look to the near distance with so much hope and wonder

if the shadows of tonight can be the sunlight of my life

i think i'll see the beauty of all that i have missed

so here's to the uncertainty that has been eating at my soul

let it eat until it is full but leave me a little room

so i can fill it with colours and mix them all together

may it pour out through my eyes and lift me from my feet

i love you jesus, i am frustrated jesus

all these uninvited whispers

stopping you in your tracks

beautiful words that slip off your tongue

grasping at the wonders still concealed

if this is what the world has become

let me float down that stream

simply and softly at ease

i follow the beautiful melody

trying in vain to replicate its meaning

may i jump off the edge or walk into the fire

so everyone can miss me

to see my acquaintances fake the tears

maybe i will become a simple melody

short and sweet

it kind of feels good when i open my eyes

i would cry with joy if i could cry at all

if this life is hell i don't want a heaven

what good is it to live life to the fullest

to have it all judged based on unreachable standards

fuck the afterlife, i am a simple melody

intertwining with beautiful masterpieces all around me

simplest sounds

i wish for the simplest sounds

to play in my ears

i wish for the simplest sounds

to lull me to sleep

i wish for the simplest sounds

to give me some balance

i wish for the simplest sounds

to let me down slow

hey i feel alright

i am a tornado

picking things up and throwing it all around

because i don't give a fuck

about anything at all

i see no way around it

please don't be a pretty little flower

because i will pick you right up

send you flying into the sky

because i don't give a fuck

about anything at all

i once had a bunch of friends

they were the coolest green seashells

but i don't know where they are now

because i sent them flying away

when i tried to hug them tight

but i know it in my head

that the reasons are so clear

it's because i don't give a fuck

hey! i don't give a fuck

about anything at all

no not anything at all

in this rough soil we have settled

we can grow up in the garden

in this rough soil we have settled

as we grow and grow so tall

we will save the light we have collected

surrounded by the fences we have come to hate

in this rough soil we have settled

if the vines go we too shall follow

the lights will draw attention

the rain will feed us, the rain will drown us

from this rough soil we are rooted

the sun will dry us, the sun will kill us

into this rough soil we will return

here's to sleeping in the meadows and living without fear

slowly creeping through the walls

eating shadows with pure delight

when the little creatures call

into the night and out of sight

holy ghost it takes me whole

constant shivers to keep me up

on a silver platter you have my soul

pouring your drink into my cup

do i dare to inhale this lovely smoke

this cold weather numbs my judgement

as soft as this quiet night we spoke

of hopeful futures and past engagements

you are a melody i cannot resist

killing shadows without a second thought

but under the golden moon is something we missed

little creatures they called and here we were brought

calm seas and white clouds

there is a chance there is more meaning to this noise

like unrealistic expectations playing back in my head

reaching for greater wants hanging by a thread

i never did a thing to expect anything more

a thousand ideas in my head left me so sore

just let it seep a little into my empty core

all i ever wanted was to be the pavement

to let a thousand words find its way into the cracks

make me so strong, fill me with what i lack

i never did a thing to deserve anything more

there is a meaning behind the reasons i exist

hidden behind the details that i've missed

if i am reduced to ambiguity, so be it

all will be settled once i find my beautiful home

calm seas and white clouds once i claim my true love

calm seas and white clouds

i navigate my ship through the currents

calm seas and white clouds

i know you are more than the pages of this book

calm seas and white clouds

all i want is to die in unmistakable happiness

calm seas and white clouds

i will not stop until all i can see is

calm seas and white clouds

oh magnetic fields

magnetic fields pull me in

it doesn't matter where i've been

if i don't fight it'll be alright

i am inclined to lose my sight

make me feel what has eluded me

help me see what i cannot see

magnetic fields pull me in

retrace the steps as i begin

as the cool winds reach great heights

all i am is a lonely little kite

the pieces fall in place around me

so hold your lips and leave me be

magnetic fields are you my true love

am i to float away and up above

i count the stars all the way home

every night is a different home

but in my mind, just magnetic fields

with all my being, oh magnetic fields

this lovely tree

the tree in the forest has roots

that stretch through the solemn ground

interlocking with mind and soul

so beautiful in all its truth

the nests in its shade are full of life

taking refuge on the branches, in the leaves

when time goes by they drift away

and just like that nothing was ever there

if i could i would climb up real high

to lay my head and rest my feet

let the roots take in my weariness

my mind will drift away

as the sun goes down my eyes will follow

this majestic tree is all i need

if i die it will be up high

this lovely tree is all i will be

pretty sails

my intent is heartfelt

like my pen pressing

onto this empty plain paper

my attempt is juvenile

meaning the best but

going about it all wrong

oh, what am i trying to accomplish

all i want is the feeling

that leaves me at ease

but the world does not agree

and my handwriting grows sloppy

my head it hurts

my pulse is faint

the only thing that makes me

happy is the smile on your face

even though you don't really care

you pierce my soul

and steal my heart

so now i know i have a heart

and if all i ever saw was red

my blood could be the entire ocean

i would be your boat

you could be my sails

i swear i'd never let us sink

if you'd guide us from the storm

you can trust me

i am all too trustworthy

because my attempt to give

my intent to love

are the things i wear

on my empty sleeve

you can feel my heart

and my blood piercing red

somnium and spes, you take my life

i dreamt through young eyes last night

with so much hope and all my wonder

every new day my mind was clear

with all my hope and so much wonder

oh i tried so hard to sink to the bottom

so i could look to the surface in complete silence

when the ringing in my head dies down

and the shaking of my arms is gone

maybe the colours will slowly creep back in

dreams and hopes and all these words

i couldn't care less i couldn't care less

expectations for the coming tide

i couldn't care less i couldn't care less

i am a daffodil withering away

standing tall as i droop and droop

you give me sunlight and nourish my soul

it's just too bad i couldn't care less