jumping fires in my past life while juggling two bowls of lions

ever crystal like that look you've been brought
his teeth and his head for the links of your arm
everything i have witnessed to the thought i've been taught
things like that, like the look in your eyes help me stay calm
waves that crash all around us, keep us at great fear
so delicate and attractive that it keeps us all near
heavy crowns upon your head along with its display!
shades of rain upon your name in the middle of may
counts of how many times your heart has beat in the last minute
all the things i wish i could do for you but just couldn't
my strength is not great but i love the hell out of it
nothing i have to cry over, i am strong and i'll kill it
my brain is heavy and my limbs feel pretty funny
my attention is alert and i jump like a bunny
my thoughts are mixed and jumbled up, but i like the feeling
something in my guts again and i don't feel like dying
echoes through the walls so green and full of spirit
nothing in this stupid world i can put upon it
i wish i could say hello now and not in two days
different ways that i could do it, beneficial ways
five counts of your judgment i can bury deep inside
different things in same old days they can collide
the sooner the better says the wise old wizard
or face my evil thunder and towering blizzard
so be brave, be bold, be whatever you could want to be
the many frogs all around could be my eyes so i can see
see you in the corner of my mind and corner i waited
because i need healing, yes i am oh so tainted
to get back to the originality of the first line
i must be chugging on along waiting for the sign
to carry my green heart back to the motherland
with roses i'll be planting and my feet right in the sand
counting the days till we can count the stars instead
to put our hearts together so we can see that it is red
it is beautiful to me, it is so wonderful to me
to see the lines along our sides all match to be free
holding on way too tight for the feeling of it to last
don't be slow, not very slow, just wanted to be fast
finding balance when the balance is just not very clear
pick the pieces to patch up, to hold it again very dear
i am thirsty for the knowledge to pour and pour and pour
drink so i can die again, i will die more more more
i am smiling, see my teeth! so straight and tangible white
there is not a feeling of regret or shame, no such contrite
so cool and calm with a feeling of grace
then we can be ready to begin the chase
follow me to the finish line, where our dreams are vast
we will set sail to the other side so let us blast
we are walking slowly enjoying our company
so serene and sincere so leave us and let us be
plainly moving along with really needed harmony
coming to the other side with lit candles not blasphemy
there is no challenge to the evil men in front of me
nothing to keep clear, nothing balanced easily
stop the giant pillows inside my furry chest
smooth waters to the rescue oh just the very best
simplify the times so they can all just match
the first set of kiwis, the incredible first batch
to the oceans we walk, with our toes in the sand
collecting precious seashells and in the sun we stand
being carried away in the ear of an eagle
going with all of our most favourite people
we will never stop again, and our happiness has no death
nothing left to wonder, and never to forget
springtime, we will go to soak up all we want to know
memories down to our belly just like long ago
where we were pure and hugged every single day
i was very speechless, there was nothing i could say
music mixtapes, and absolutely nothing in between
nothing to be touched or heard, nothing to be seen
oh leave my teeth in the shackles of your arm
connected to your little face, so pretty and no harm
with long skinny hair so relaxing
my healthy long legs i am contacting
run, run to the finish line with feet of fire
so much faith and so much desire
into the bed and under the sheets and so cozy
i trust them so much, but you most only
singing myself to sleep again, but never lonely
embracing all the identities i never could be
nothing. to see. nothing. again
just nails in my coffin. where it will begin

don't ever tell anybody anything. if you do, you start missing everybody

i'm hiding behind the tall yellow trees
warming my hands and trying to hold back a sneeze
then a family of giraffes accept me as their own
traveling the distance and making it all well known
the sun is all the gold we will ever need
thousands of stars beckon us to pause before we proceed
holding my hands out to receive all i had ever ignored
i have a thirst for more, but ever content is the horde
now i'm lying there, head under water by the bayside
just waiting for the sunset and the rising tide
making friends with purple fish and a beautiful mermaid
stretching her arms making a bed under the shade
let myself fall in, embracing the blue as my own
deeper and deeper into the depths of the unknown
meeting a giant whale and letting him swallow me whole
now i have the direction because i have all the control
shoot me out directly into the high, open sky
right past the clouds and migrating birds i will fly
bright lights, no feelings, black sky is all i see
limp goes my body, nothing for my mind to foresee
one last breath before my uninvited free fall arrives
so i fall and fall and fall and fall and fall and die
out spills my blood and memories and little secrets
the moments i buried deep down with all my regrets
my body decomposes right there and now i am a tree
a pretty girl hides behind me to sneeze and i am happy

S.A.D.F.M.E.H

stop. drop.. dark spots under my eyes
step by step to my inevitable demise
face down on my couch and so peaceful
this empty air that gently lulls
me to blind and tantalizing sleep.

it led me to the image of the corner bench
with a weeping woman and her dead child
such sorrow a gentle reassurance could not quench
not with her dead soul, her dead child
so pretty but no hope in her overweight eyes
too damaged to save her from utter demise

far away is the person i love the most
who i love to hold but is never close
our eyes will meet from what seems an ocean's length
the love is great but not worth an ocean's length

i know what is beautiful, but do i deserve it
frail in the mind, which eventually leads to the heart
convinced my faith is strong, but i am full of shit
i am not as strong as i was at the start
let me reach under the blacks of the depths
force in what i can see and whatever i can get
it makes me happy to be bobbing my entranced head
shaking my legs before that very first date
too anxious to commit to the very words being said
scared for the eventual and dreaded feeling of hate

it's all in my head but it's too late for me now
so i let myself sleep because it's all i have for now
to dream of beautiful things i am unaware of right now
my hopes are high so i hold my chin up to the skies
there is no such device, no demise, no disguise
won rof

you're a butterfly i'm a dandelion

these were dreams so full of angst
no recollections of the cool spring air
just thick locks of your jet-black hair
so smooth and straight

you tied it effortlessly against my neck
slowly crawling, encompassing my face
so willing and so full of hope
no room for shame

don't pinch my cheeks, don't let me fall
fire in our eyes and that is all
my heart.. it rest against your chest
to find it's way into your grasp

we were strangers agreeing to this
waiting for the count to reach the skies
to dig into the ground below our feet
into our own world

you set your sights for the greener end
dreams so nice, oh just like heaven
cut off your hair too tangled to unwind
i am stupid and blind