this is a blessing in disguise

everything is fine
things aren't perfect
but what is perfect

i have held onto things i could live without
and let go of what i need the most
trying to live without doubts
but the doubts are there the most

i am not an angel, and you aren't one either
you may be better than me, but i could be worse
i'm not going to change for you, and you neither
because things may be bad, but it could be worse

we have persevered and learned to live like this
so i promise that everything is fine
keep a smile on and let me know you still exist
we will turn out quite alright, everything is fine
not divine, but fine

i am blind

you're not my jesus christ
you won't drive my demons away
my odds are but a roll of the dice
and my demons have come to play

it smells like aging spirits here
too many chances have come and gone
so hold your ground but don't stay clear
i'm down to hold my breath
and let this drag on

i have promised to defeat myself
but it keeps slipping my mind
you say it better than i do, i need help
i am losing my mind
and i am blind